Waiting for a Reply

PURE AGONY: waiting for her reply. Luckily she didn't take as long as we did to respond. It was two days later.
I was at work and had been checking our email every hour, you know, just in case. I got back from lunch and, of course, I checked my email. There was one from her! I opened it up, but didn't finish reading before I grabbed the phone to call Daniel's classroom and tell him we got a second email.
I could tell he was very excited, but he couldn't read it until he finished working with some students. I was able to calm down enough to finish reading the whole email. I was ecstatic! I couldn't take it anymore; I went down to Daniel's class and pulled up the email on his computer so he could read it as soon as he was done.
He was just finishing up what he was teaching when I came in. He asked me if it'd be okay if he told the class. I said he could, the class knew we were trying to adopt. His class was so happy! Someone asked if it was a boy or girl, we told them it was a boy. All the boys were so happy and the girls were disappointed. They each hoped we'd name the baby after them if we got the baby. So cute.
It is a good thing we got the email towards the end of the day because neither of us could focus, we were just so giddy.
This second email had lots of info about herself. It felt very honest and open. All the questions we had wanted to ask her, but didn't feel we should yet (like age, location, how far along in the pregnancy she is), she answered in the email. We couldn't be more exited! She honestly could fit right into our family with all the thing she likes and does.
We made sure to write back that very night, we didn't want another pause or she might think we weren't interested.
We couldn't stop thinking about her and adoption. A few times when I was bored at work I'd sneak a peek at baby stuff online. We told a few family and a very few close friends about our good news.
From there we started to create a relationship with this prospective birth mom. We emailed back and forth every few days. She told us that there were other couples that she was getting to know besides us. This scared us because we didn't want any competition, but at the same time we were glad that she was because if we were her couple then she would never have to wonder who else is out there. If I were in her place of course I'd want to talk to multiple couples so I knew I had the right one in the end.
Every email got easier to write. Yes, we still agonized over everything we wrote and obsessively panicked as we waited for her reply and read each of her emails a hundred times. But we were creating a friendship with this girl. I was glad that there was a connection between us because we all wanted an open adoption and this bond would make that easy.