Choosing to Adopt

As I've mentioned before, from my teenage years I knew adoption might be a part of my future. When Daniel and I were dating I asked him about his thoughts on adoption; He said he'd be cool with it. Back then it was just a thought, something to be considered. After five and a half years of infertility, adoption has become a reality.
We had decided years ago to keep keep trying to work out our infertility problems and not do anything drastic, whether it was invitro or adoption, until I turned thirty.
Laying in bed one night last summer, 2012, as typical, thoughts were running through my mind. I was thinking about turning thirty in a year and trying to figure out what route I wanted to follow to start our family. I asked Daniel what direction he thought we should take. Of course me talking woke him up, that boy can fall asleep so fast, so he really wasn't in any condition to be thinking about deep matters. He mumbled "I don't know...but I'll think about it."
Fast forward to Sunday, February 17, 2013. Our friends had just moved away that week and we typically got to hold their baby and help with their kids during church. We are sitting in church, alone, watching all these families around us. It made me think of how much I wanted that. Next, in sunday school the spirit was really strong and I also started thinking of my sister, who recently passed away. I was overcome with emotions and couldn't hold back my tears and sobs. So much in fact that we skipped out on third hour and went home. Daniel and I took Diesel on a long walk, to help me calm down and enjoy the peace of nature.
Back at home I was feeling good. We laid down for an afternoon nap, but instead we started talking. Daniel asked me "What made you so emotional today?" I told him "I was thinking about my sister, wishing we could start our own family and feeling the spirit really close." Then I asked him, "Have you thought about what we should do this summer when I turn thirty?" He said he had been thinking a lot about it today and that he thinks maybe we should look more into adoption. I told him I agree and that today I had the distinct impression that

There is a child that is meant to be in our family, but they need to touch someone else's life first.
 

As soon as we both shared our feelings and inspirations I immediately felt a calm peaceful feeling. It felt like a weight had been lifted off of me and I could breath. I knew this was the right choice. I was so  excited and happy! I wanted to tell everyone and start doing adoption paperwork that day.
Over the next week we talked with others in our church ward that have been through the adoption process. It was nice to hear about it first hand and to see how they received such beautiful miracles in their lives. Daniel and I have decided to go through the LDS adoption agency. We stopped by the offices and got started on all the paperwork.
And so our journey begins, hoping to adopt. I know that there could be a hard and emotional road ahead of us, but I know that this is what our Father in heaven wants us to do, and that makes me happy because it is what we want to do too.